Friday, March 27, 2009

Soon Ill Feel Whole Again!

Today a real flight time was published for the group James is traveling home with !!!! That means we are in the 72 hour window! This feels so unreal to me. I feel like crying and laughing all at the same time. I cant wait to feel his arms around me and see the look on his face and the kids face the first time he gets to hold them! Its amazing to me all the emotions I feel. I have been checking the web-site with an obsessive frequency in the last few days and today when I saw his group listed I wanted to jump around and scream!! I know that I have been grinning from ear to ear ever since then! Tonight I was holding Paige and looking in her eyes and I am so grateful that I am not the one who has had to miss the last fifteen months of watching my babies grow! I am so glad that James has the strength to do things that most cant even imagine.
James dad and step-mom are here and they have been helping me with a few last minute touches. It has been good to have them here to keep me grounded. The sad part is that he is going to miss them by a day! At least the kids have gotten to see them..
So today I am going to bed with prayers of thanks that my soldier(my heart) is on its way home and prayers of peace for those that aren't as fortunate...

Monday, March 16, 2009

SO much happening...

We have just 13 days or so until the big arrival!!! I cant wait until my heart comes home! At the same time.. this deployment felt like it would take forever and now with just under two weeks I feel so stressed about him coming home. He is very worried about fitting into our lives again. I don't feel like so much has changed that it will be too much of an issue, then again it has been 15 months. We have all grown, that's for sure. For James and I it has been in in our hearts and for the kids..mostly in height.. haha!
Ethan is really enjoying scouts. He just participated in his first Pinewood Derby! What fun! there were some SUPER serious parents there!!! I discovered I am NOT nearly competitive enough for that! He is doing very well in school, as always. He even starts rehearsals for the spring play this week!!
Paige.. her sass is getting in check little by little! she is so very sweet but everything is on her terms. She is doing great and loving Ballet. In everything we do she mentions her daddy and how she cant wait to do it with him.
As for me, I feel like Ive got SO much to do that my head is spinning trying to figure out where to start!! :) wish me luck!